My GPA dropped like .385 and I am pissed but in reality I am okay with that, it means that I am not as smart as everyone says and they can stop being cunt faces and looking at me like I am a genious. Last year at riverview we had to take an IQ test... I took it and got three digits... A lot of people got three digits but my three digits made life harder for me.. People work so hard to be smart and all I have to do is read a book and bam, I know the stuff.. I hate that I can just look at something and understand it. I hate that it doesnt take much for me to be smart, I hate that people expect so much from me because I am smart, If I was like Peter or Kevin or Chris, no one would be asking me about college, or be worried about what I am doing with my life, If I wasnt smart I could get by with selling drugs and car hopping, stealing and all the other random bad shit they do/did for money. I could get in trouble with the police and my family would look at me no different, they would expect it but being smart you know the laws you know that you cant break them, you know that you have to go to college to have a futue, you know that you have to make something of yourself to be noticed in the light and not shunned like a leper. Being smart means no jail time just school time. There used to be a time when school was my home, when I loved going everyday, when I loved every minute of it, I would answer questions, help teachers, I would do all my homework, I would get all my school work down, I would do assignments before they were due not last minute in the class before. I would try, try so hard and this year I just dont care, I hate my school, the people in it lack respect, responsibility, personalility, empathy, kindness, they lack everything a decent human being should have. I hate it, why cant people just have the audacity to just give a fuck just a little, like they dont treat people right, they disrepect each other, teachers, security, just everyone. They dont understand what the real world is like, they say they do, they think because they have a job that that is the real world but half of the damn people at this school couldnt make it on their own if they tried. They dont know how cold the world truly is, they make it cold with the posion that they are but they dont realise that its not all fun and games, beach days and water sports. They dont see people living and dying, they dont know what its like to hold your best friend as they drift off from an overdose, they dont know what its like to lose three family members every day year for three years in a room. they dont understand what its like on the outside, were people dont care about you, they dont care if you dont make it out alive, gets them to a better place. They only care about themsevles they are ruthless cunt licking dick sucking bitches. Well wait, these students will fit right in. I just dont care about this school any more. I just want to be done, I just want to be finished with these stupid classes that are way to easy for me, I just want out, because I hate everything here, I dont care about anything here, I care about one person in this school. ONE PERSON And the other 6000 can go suck a cock. Ah, I wish I care but I dont, I dont care and that hurts. I should care, I should. Its important to care about this, this leads to that and that is my future and my future has always had big plans. But right now, here in this moment I just dont care. Not one bit at all.
-Am I six feet under yet?
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